Kepone's Blog

Wow... that's an awesome entry.

 

I share your feelings, really! I know I've been pretty much a dickhead for the last year or so and I think it's getting worse. I dont know... I just guess it depends on the enviroment around me.

 

I guess I seem to get irritated too easily and I'm not sure why (I mean hell, I don't smoke, drink or do any drugs of any sort unless you consider coke a drug? Coke-a-Cola that is). So it's not like I've got other things dereailing me from what's really going on around me (that is probably the problem)

 

I can't blame it for lack of sleep because I've been getting, on average, 7-8 hours of sleep lately (used to sleep 12 hours last year, who knows). If everything is going well in your life right now I'm not sure where being a dickhead is coming from for you but for myself it's just the day to day stress I have to deal with from bills, crappy relationships or relation problems rather and so forth.

 

I actually blew up at my mum last week and felt terrible after doing it (only because I actually cussed her out). She was trying to tell me how I should do this or that with my daughter and I just lost it. I'm an adult now and she is my daughter so I feel I should do as I will and discipline as I need or want.

 

I'm in the same boat... my sister says I need to loosen up (as does everyone else) but then again... how exactly does someone like myself do that?

 

Here's to your evoloving and embracing! Maybe I'll get there someday myself..

Thanks. I'm only starting to open up to others but it's not easy.

 

Like an invisible wall. Gotta open the gate more often to let folks in.

Thanks. I'm only starting to open up to others but it's not easy.

 

Like an invisible wall. Gotta open the gate more often to let folks in.

 

Indeed it isn't easy Kepone.

I have no trouble getting on with folk once we're out and about...partying or whatever. Thing is for the most part anyone I meet, is through the small group of friends that I already have. I have tried to bring people into our little click, like say someone I know from work but it doesn't seem to pan out. They will come out one time and that's it.

 

Truth is I have a hard time meeting folk because I work 3rd shift which means even though I work in twin 15 story towers in downtown Atlanta, there's really only a handful of folks here at night. I certainly have seen people I would have LOVED to have met over the years. *wink wink* But its very hard to approach someone as a complete stranger in this day and age. Having a live at home girlfriends definately limits the people you can meet anyways. For some reason GF don't like strange women coming over.

 

That said, we have had for years... 10yrs? a close knit group of friends, and we tend to absorb people into the group from the other people (who have normal jobs) so I'm not too concerned about this. However if the group broke up...Like say everyone moved away to the west coast or where-ever. I think it would be very difficult to get a new group together. I think I would probably join some local community groups. This gives you the opportunity to get with people that share a common interest with you as well as meeting folk you dont have to work with.